Starting to go out again - Shoreditch on a saturday night.
Dont worry about the calories in a drink.
Worry about how tall you are standing, and how you hold your head up high. 
Worry about the guy giving you the eye from across the bar. 
Because you look so good when you are healthy.

Starting to go out again - Shoreditch on a saturday night.

Dont worry about the calories in a drink.

Worry about how tall you are standing, and how you hold your head up high. 

Worry about the guy giving you the eye from across the bar. 

Because you look so good when you are healthy.

Introduction

Hi guys! Well normally I post my madness all over various social media sites but the aim is to confine this spam to a small and tidy space on tumblr (eco-friendly feed flow). Basically my name is Aries, I am a medical student living in London, who has had a bit of a mental ride of life so far. No doubt snippets of my history will be posted on here at some point, but for now at least, its a virtual, moment by moment, auto-biography of my life so far, and my goals and aspirations for the future. I am on a very personal journey right now - obviously I am training to one day become a doctor. I am also trying to perfect other life skills, such as my fitness level, overall health and nutrition, intrapersonal skills, household skills such as doing the washing correctly or being able to cook a slap up dinner for my banging (one day) husband. However, I suffer from an eating disorder and bouts of anxiety and depression, something which I have only become truly aware of over the last few months. This makes all these things that little bit more difficult for me to attempt with ease. Or without making a huge fuss that annoys everyone around me. I am seeking treatment for my mental health issues, and currently in recovery from my eating disorder but those of you who have even the tiniest experience of them yourselves, will completely understand me when i say, its all work in progress, one step at a time, day by day targets kind of stuff. Its hard to manage a health condition which involves damage to the tools you would normally use to help you cope. One day life is fantastic, the next, its the end of the world. One day you feel almost normal and the next your mind is racing, you are overwhelmed by panic, or negativity, or sense of having no control. You can be binging like mad or starving yourself to the point of physical exhaustion in order to try and protract a sense control over an area of your life. Its bloody difficult trying to maintain relationships with others, a social life, a good academic repertoire and general peace of mind when there is so much fluctuation in your mental and consequently physical health. There is a both a confident, previously successful, very rational voice and an irrational diseased and detrimental voice in your head, having an argument with each other and most days, your mood, motivations and progress are determined by which voice is screaming the loudest. I’m learning to drown out the sound of the ED in my head, and to make logical decisions, to put my health first, and to get the most out of my life, these days. With help of course. Im taking a YOLO approach to my behaviours. I am attempting to learn from mistakes. Attempting to think before I speak, and weigh up my decisions with care before taking action. And I’m going to document it so I can see my progress on this journey. Also maybe one day i can help or inspire someone else to do the same kind of thing. To sort themselves out. To be successful. To recover. Maybe it will just keep me on track. We all have issues. We all have dreams. We cant let our issues stop us chasing our dreams because a handicap is only disabling if you let it be just that. I have some fantastic friends and family who are permanently acting as my individual crutches throughout this difficult time, and I couldn’t be more greatful for them, or feel more honoured to be worth so much of their time and energy! My decision to stick a middle finger up at mental health disorders on the whole isn’t just for me but for them too - to make them proud. In life, you can only take the hand you are dealt and make the best of it. You certainly cant win the game if you throw your cards down on the table in a fit of rage or a tantrum. Be logical. Be patient. Improve your poker face. You never know when lady luck might play the next round in your favour. 

Rambled on way too much for an introduction,

More stuff about me later,

TRUTH BEAUTY FREEDOM LOVE

aries x